What more to say...Since July of 2012 we have:
Finished updating our yard
Finished up 2 more semesters of school- I took summer classes
Myra started preschool and loves it tremendously
Started updating the inside of the house
Started my LAST semester of school--this semester I received a letter from the President of MSU to congratulate me on my 4.0 GPA.Yes it made me feel smart. It is good to get that sometimes, when the person holding me back from my smartness is ME...:)
The ward boundaries were changed so we are in a different ward now--I however received the same calling--ward pianist- It helps force me into learning new pieces and better my understanding and appreciation for music
School seems to be a big part of my life right now. I have even considered getting a Masters program...I think I am a little crazy, but the research and projects I have been working on have helped me gain an appreciation for studying what I want to study. The project I am working on this semester would work great for a thesis!
I would post some recent pictures but we lost our camera. When I realized that it was gone, I backtracked to a museum, and a restaurant, but neither of them had any good news for me. I feel like we have a bunch of memories erased.
Another great achievement I have accomplished is the feeling that I don't have to weigh myself anymore. I have come to the idea that I am dissatisfied and hard on myself when I weigh myself, partly because I compare my weight to other women. After the 3 moves in one year, I got tired of pulling everything out, and I haven't pulled out the scale. I have found that it is nice to not know how much I weigh. I know I have lost weight by comparing past pictures to present pictures, but I do not care how much I have lost. It is nice to just see and feel the difference in weight loss. To become more comfortable with my body size and shape is more appreciable, for me, when I don't have know how much I am 'supposed' to weigh. I also lost interest in comparing myself to other women, especially on campus. As I realize that not every woman on campus has had 3 children. So when people are comparing each others weight and they ask how much I weigh I can honestly say I have no clue. Last time I weighed myself was after I had Kandie and I was about 200 lbs. If that is what I weigh now, then it is my muscle baby!!! Between working on the yard during the summer and now the house, I can say that when I flex I can actually see some of the muscle instead of just flab. It is such a wonderful feeling to not care about my weight, and yet I feel comfortable with it as well.
As you can see, life is great. I have become more confident in my abilities, even if I was kicked in the head by a horse in my youth...I feel strong and not afraid to express my opinion and feelings on things. AND boy do I love it. I think this is what it feels to be an adult. Finally after getting married, having 2 kids, and almost graduating college, I have my own opinion and confidence to express them. Watch out world here I come...
Here is a little picture update since I know I am a slacker. I don't know what it is. I used to be so excited about keeping a blog and having it updated for everyone, but I just am not as excited as I used to be. I don't know if it's because I know I have things I need to do now or if I was just lazy when I started our blog up, but whatever it was, I hope that the motivation comes back.
Lately I have been procrastinating a lot. This last week was Spring Break, and I seriously did nothing. I just felt tired,watched movies, and slept. Now I feel a little guilty for taking the week off from everything. Oh well right? things will come picking back up next week when I am forced to do work.
I have also been getting excited as I have been getting letters inviting me to graduate and stuff of that nature. It is fun to hear that you are going to graduate soon. This Spring I will finally graduate--May 4th. Yahoo!!!
One more fun story that has boosted my confidence. Today as I was grocery shopping, the cashier asked how old I was. I was a little nervous when I answered and thought that maybe I picked up something with alcohol in it and was ready to have her take it out of my purchases whatever it was. But instead, she just commented on how I look like I am still in High School. She was wondering how my age worked out with a older girl with me (I had Myra shopping with me). I have never been told that I look like I am in high school. NEVER!!! I usually get the comment that I look like someone's professor in college. So that boosted my confidence a little bit. It makes me feel young again. I just wish my body felt and looked the way I did in High School.
